So this thing in
retrospect still seems funny!
Sometimes I truly
believe I have no sense of humor except the self tantalizing thing! That
pediatrician woman did one thing really well, make me doubt my unknown role
very well.
It started many years
ago when I thought being a single mother was cool, a few mishaps later, and
after decades I realized living with my own self is an ordeal. Till that
point living with someone seemed to be an impossible idea.
Then call it
convenience of metro lifestyle, the live in happened, only to add another
plethora of complicated stuff. With time one does become
immune to a lot of things, only to realize you can be numb but you are not
painless.
So this 30th birthday has been rather hectic, settling in
with new (old) living – non living. When I had just settled into that, parents
arrived. Whether one admits or doesn’t, you tend to take your parents for
granted. Retired lazy Bong father and almost turning saint superactive
mother is a strange combination. The idea here was to ensure the roleplay
of perfect daughter! Did not succeed. I am guessing mothers don’t let you
succeed here. But it was good to give them a tour of my life! Little had
parents gone, and the long staying house guest packed up, the other mother
announced arrival.
There went my head and
heart for a neverending run. The amount of hyper analyzing I could do was
beyond belief. All of how terrible I was with some basic things came back to
me. I spent the day cooking, drinking and thinking. And almost dying as the
moment came close.
The magic moment
happened, and seemed so freaking easy.
Questions straight up,
and answers after many years was as clear as it gets, that was respected, and
not judged.
And after these two
visits seems I have been able to attain the next stage of self actualization,
and that too with familial sanction
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